my god. ive got disturbing things going through my head right now. sex and the city the movie is out now right? but i obviously can't watch it now. 2 very good reasons why i can't. the first would be cause im strapped for cash. (ive got to pay 375pounds for my freaking robe! thats why not) and second..ive got exams. HEH! But it's 75% more because im strapped for cash lah. hehehe.

anyhooos....to watch the movie..ive gotta finish watching the whole 6 seasons rite? i know..the season has ended like...a gazillion years ago...its just that i didnt have the money to buy ALL the boxsets...i only bought the 1st 2 seasons...and and andddd...being in brunei then...downloading the episodes were a bitch. its so effin slow it'll take forever. which is why i opted to buy the boxsets instead. anyhoos....internet is much faster where i am now. so i downloaded the 3rd season like..last week. and ive smartly managed to watch the episodes while im having lunch or before i sleep. smart eh? hehehe. shit. ive got 3 seasons to watch lagi before i can watch the movie.... -_- blame it on sopranos...grey's anatomy...criminal minds....gossip girl...samantha who and how i met your mother on why i havent gotten around to finish watching SATC (that stands for sex and the city btw). shitness...i just realized just how much series there are to watch. and i havent even included lipstick jungle and cashmere mafia!!!

eh...see? i always get off tangent to what i wanna say. *ahem* where was i? ah yes...i just finished watching ep 10 on season 3 tadi. (warning to those who havent watched season 3 and doesnt wanna know what's going on - pls do not read any further) but carrie is being such a bitch for cheating on her oh-so-nice bf and going for her MARRIED ex-bf!! talor kali. she has a good thing going on with her current bf..not to mention being hotter and sweeter than her ex. andddd..her ex is equally stupid as well. WHY OH WHY is he cheating on his hot young tall wife for carrie? yeah..shes got a nice body but shes shorter AND older?? ehhhh~ inda ku paham.

which leads me to have these disturbing thoughts in my head. are ppl never satisfied with what they have? i remember when carrie just started dating her current bf now..and she was overrr the moon about going on dates with him and all. and now that she has him..and they are happy and everything is smooth sailing and blue skies everywhere...shes going for something fucked up and wrong. is this what ppl want? or does she like the chase saja and once she has it she's bored now?

is human nature really like this? we only like the chase? once we have that thing we want...we'll get bored over it easily?

scratching my brain and trying to find real life examples...i figured taking myself as an example would be simple enough. just this morning i was going through ebay and searching for a bargain on the new pink nano. i loveeeeee this lil baby, even when i don't have it ... YET. heh heh. you would think having a nano already would make me satisfied. but noooo...i need to have the new 8GB one. a PINK one i might add. why can't i just settle for the old boring white one? WHY DO I NEED A NEW ONE? deep down i know i dont NEED it..but i know that i just want it.

will i never be satisfied with what i have? shit. i hope im not a carrie bradshaw waiting to happen. but then again. im such a materialistic bitch i probably won't ever be satisfied with all the material things in this world. but i know i won't be like that in a relationship. esehhhh~~ hehehehehe. *blush*

awu eh. im probably the record holder among my group for being in a longest relationship. 7 yrs man!!! crap. kalau ada anak tiap2 tahun ah...7 sudah anak ku bah ni. although i have a feeling mardhi is going to top me on that with her man herman. awhhh~ they are so getting hitched soon. but then again. i know that fifah is definitely gonna marry before mardhi. kan kan kan fif? when are u getting married eh? *nudge nudge* hehehe.

OMG. i feel so old. i cant believe im talking about marriages and babies. im gonna stop before i talk about menopause and havin grandkids ;p

Remember her? Marie Digby? name is pronounced Ma-ree-ay rupanya.

Anywayssss.....a couple of months back i posted this song of her. One of my personal favourites. hehehe. probably cause i can relate to it :) ill post it p lagi skali lahhhhh~ to refresh your memories :P hereeee'ssss "stupid for you".





lawa ah? i like the song. you seeeee....im talking about it cause she released her albummmmm! lama plang sudah. she released it last April....i just came across her videoclip!! her first official videoclip!! yayyy! and the song is niceeeee toOOooo! so i instantly searched for the torrents to her album. and i found it. YAY! buttt...i dont really like the album version of "stupid for you" i prefer the piano version (refer to clip above) ah wellll~ i still like the song though. Here's the official video to her first single of her album. its called "say it again"



siapa minta the songs..just nudge me on msn. or im feeling extra rajin ill even email it to you. god knows just how slow the internet connection is these days :P

Do you guys remember this song? I remember loving this song soOooo much when i was in KG2. i would listen to it balik2. i even had my dad buy the cassette for me. hehehe. CLASSIC EH!! CASSETTE!!!! hahaha. check this video out. lawaaa the song.

I like it when Keanu Reeves was talking. I just realized just how sexy his voice is. "terrible? no...it just reminds you that we are all alone that's all"

darn. he gave me the chills. heh heh heh.

*yawns*

5 more days till exams start. im shitting in my pants. *SHRIEKS*

i just checked and read my tag board. Sheila and Zul linked me. coolies. Sheila didn't leave her blog's addy on her tagboard msg though...but Zul did. So when i visited Zul's blog...ada Sheila linked on his webbie as well. awesomeness. so i checked hers out... and rupanya Syami pun ada! nyehehehe. U see...i like to blog hop sometimes as well. So this is awesome. Im so kepoh..so i like to read what ppl have been doing with their lives as well. Yeah. Aku penyebok. Heehee ;P I'll permanently link em krg lah.

I finished downloading all Britney Spears 7 albums kelmarin. I was just listening to some of her songs..and i remembered shes got some cool songs from her album...so since i didn't bring it here with me (ketara jua ada all her albums tu hehe!) i decided to dl it arah limewire. But heck...limewire was so DUMB. it made my computer lag brabisssssss~ so that got me so MENTAL. so i found a torrent for all 7 cds. i love technology. siapa blame technology atu talor tu *snicker*

A good Britney Spears song that fellow fans should listen to:
- One Kiss From You
- When Your Eyes Say It
- Email My Heart
- You Got It All
- I've Got That Boom Boom
- Outrageous
- Curious

and again. i stress that this is for BRITNEY lovers. so if you only like *some* of her songs, you might think that most of em are too girly or has weak beats :P hmpf

FREEDOMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!

hehehe. well technically...yes. freedom from assignments. i just handed in my last assignment. EVER! wow...i just realized that. seriously. i just did. how awesome is that? no more assignments till...well...FOREVER! muahahaha.

im so glad i got the third case study out of my mind. that was such a huge relief. *phew* now i can finally concentrate on studying for exams. my LAST exams mind you. hehe. for the time being anyway lah. I know ill go through more exams since im seriously considering doing the ACCA. but im not gonna worry too much into the future now. lalalalalalala~

its 7pm...and its still light out. i hate the time here. its so effing weird. i showered early today. pasal si fish awal mandi sudah. and i thought...that must feel good...so aku pun mau jua. hahahaha.

After handing our assignment this morning..us girls decided to hang out at cityview cafe and study di sana saja...so we stopped by at rashies place to pick her up dulu before heading out to the student union.

tried studying tadi..but its ok lah. i got some in. but i was too sleepy..so i curled up at the couch to sleep skajapppp saja. but then some guy who sounded a lot like borat woke me up. talor. so i continued studying. but then this lingka chick was talkin too loud...so i cudnt concentrate...grrr. so i had to cucuk telinga with my ipod. barutah dapat masuk. she sounded like a sim tadi. banar. komon sinara? jahaula! <--- only sim freaks will know wat this is. hahahahaa.

bah bah. i should get to studying. ive got enough break sudah :)

man im such a geek

The Basics

Hair Color:	Black
Eye Color:	Dark Brown
Height:	157 cm :P
Profession:	Student by day, compulsive shopper by night hehe
Relationship Status:	Single and ready to mingle ;) hehehe
Religious Views:	Islamic

My Favorites

Favorite Color:	Pink
Favorite Car:	Lexus SC430
Favorite Movie:	u mean movies right? clueless, 10 things i hate about you, bring it on, far and away, se7en, juno, i am legend, malibus most wanted, hot fuzz....etc
Favorite Hobby:	shopping, surfing, sleeping over or having friends sleepover, eating out
Favorite Song/Singer:	Mariah Carey, Shania Twain, Destiny's Child, P.Diddy, Ciara, Sheila on 7, Chris Brown, My Chemical Romance, Linkin Park, McFly...eh banyak eh
Favorite Book/Author:	Amy Tan, Judith McNaught, Sophie Kinsella, No Logo, Dan Brown, Pride and Prejudice, Memoirs of a geisha
Favorite School Subject:	I used to like Maths Syllabus D back in high school, that was easy. hehehe
Favorite Vacation Destination:	Paris!!
Favorite Food:	Pizza Hut's Beef lasagne. Mama's cooking, shes superb! seriously... *Drool*
Favorite Restaurant:	Airport restaurant, c.a. mohd yayasan (mee mamak there is the best!), dynasty for the dimsum
Favorite Animal:	koocheng
Favorite Store:	accessorize, boots, river island and next
Favorite Celebrity :	adam sandler?
Favorite Childhood Friend:	Kamu 7 yg gila hehe
Favorite Childhood Memory:	Us singing in the car on the way to amal's place at the top of our lungs :')
Favorite Baby Name:	maximus gladiatos shamamus hahahahaha
Favorite Person In Your Life:	can i make it persons? my family :)
Favorite Facebook Application :	heh heh...mestilah ani! (mcm dpt hadiah saja aku ah...)

This or That

Chocolate or Vanilla:	chocolate bar and vanilla icecream
Big Mac or Whopper:	big mac
Coke or Pepsi :	coke
Beer or Wine:	neither
Coffee or Tea:	tea pls :)
Apple Juice or O.J.:	apple juice
Facebook or MySpace:	facebook
Summer or Winter:	summer. i hate the cold weather. blech
Windows or Mac:	windows lah.
Cats or Dogs:	cats for life baby! hehe
Boxers or Briefs:	oOoo...haha. boxers?
Rain or Shine :	shine. but id like it to rain in the afternoon when i feel like staying in. siuk begumpal hehe
Chips or Popcorn:	popcorn!! empire's sweeettt popcorn. tpi aku suka express punya chips jua....
Salty or Sweet:	sweet. i like em sweet baby!
Plane or Boat:	plane...its much faster :P
Morning or Night:	im a morning person :)
Movie or Play:	movie
Walk or Drive:	drive. im too lazy to walk. sayang kasut
Money or Love:	hmm...love. i can just make money rite?
Breakfast or Dinner:	eh gila? 2 atu saja?? i want all 3!!!
Forgiveness or Revenge:	it depends on the situation (uhoh..now u know i believe in revenge *evil laugh*)
Paint or Wallpaper:	Hmm..dua2 lawa. i guess paint lah. its much more economical i think
House or Apartment:	house. i want em BIG!!

Do You?

Have Any Pets:	used to. dont wany any anymore. bubbles is irreplaceable.
Have Any Children:	maybe in the future. aku mau 10!!! hahaha
Smoke:	hell no. firm believer that it will kill u one day
Drink:	nope
Exercise:	yes. i try to do it regularly :P
Spend Your Life On Facebook:	not as much :P
Play On A Sports Team:	hmm....occasionally!
Belong To Any Organizations:	em. yeah :)
Love Your Job:	well i sure hope i will love my job in the future
Like To Cook:	SOMETIMES. love to bake though.
Play An Instrument:	i play the violin terribly. if u ever feel like feeling constipated, give me a shoutout. hehe
Sing:	all the time. in my room, in the kitchen (belaki tua tia ku krg ni).
Dance:	whenever i get ready, i like to dance and jiggle to the music im listening to. hehehe
Speak Multiple Languages:	im bilingual :)
Ice Skate:	terribly. but i dont fall on my butt 90% of the time hehehe
Swim:	yepyep :)
Paint:	Hmm....i can probably make icky impressions of ppl and things on the paper. i suppose so :p
Write:	i don't really have a creative bone in my body. i only write when im forced to do so haha
Ski:	id love to try it out one day
Juggle:	nahhh..awful at it.

Have You Ever

Stolen Anything:	hahaha. yes. (very ashamed of it)
Been Drunk Before Noon:	never tried it :P
Got Caught Telling A Lie:	i suppose i have hehehe
Got A Speeding Ticket:	inda pernah ah...mari ku mencuba
Been Arrested:	never
Littered:	probably have but unintentionally. i usually just litter my bag though...
Fantasized About A Co-Worker:	hahaha. never.
Cheated On A Test:	Hmm..i dont think i have.
Cheated In A Relationship:	nope. firm believer of being loyal in a relationship thank you :)
Failed A Class:	*sigh* yes
Screened Your Phone Calls:	yes *blush*
Eaten Food Off The Floor:	hahaha. i tried to do that when i was a kid. thank god my mum saw before i put it in my mouth :P
Stuck Gum Under A Desk:	never
Wished You Were Someone Else:	hmmm....sometimes.
Cried During A Movie:	hahaha. A LOT
Had A One Night Stand:	nope :P

Other

Describe Yourself In One Word:	complicated?
Biggest Fear:	heights, losing someone
Biggest Mistake:	ugh..loads. dont even get me started :P
Your Proudest Accomplishment:	passing and getting to where i am :)
#1 Priority In Your Life:	making my family happy :)
Dream Job:	ahhh....not sure yet. ill be happy if i get a job that is suited for my qualification :)
Causes You Believe In:	not smoking.
Special Talents:	i can wake up early in the morning even if i dont have enough sleep the previous night :P haha
Where Are You Right Now:	in my room :)
Where Would You Rather Be:	home :(
Famous Person You Want To Meet:	oOoo....matthew lawrence? hehehe. hes HOT
Place To Visit Before You Die:	all the theme parks in the world...and um...the wonders of the world as well :)
Song Played At Your Funeral:	aku mau urg baca doa and sembhyg utk aku thank u very much :P

Dedicated to those who have loved and lost

"Bye Bye"

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times
I didn't get it but you kept me in line
I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes
It's something more than saying "I miss you"
But when we talked too
All them grown folk things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There's so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"
"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I'll give the whole world to see your face
And I'm right here next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye

(Bye Bye [3x])
Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])
Bye bye

This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye

[Chorus]

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ill just copy and paste the kinda clothes that u can get from the website here so you can have a vague idea of what kinda clothes are available there. Cute aint it??

At the moment they are operating by having a pick-up point. But heck. It's in Brunei. So you can reach any place within half an hour WITH traffic jam.

Went to the Goodwin Sports Centre last night to watch the boys play football against the Omani Society. But the Omani dudes didn't show somehow. So they ended up having a friendly match against MASSOC group. (stands for malaysia and singapore society).

It was good fun. Took pictures on the way :)

The road was littered with pink flowers!! :)

I wanna plant this pink tree at my home nanti. Its big too!!

Got kinda bored watching the boys kick the ball around so....
(si Fish tinggi pasal ia pakai her new shoes :P hehe)

and last but not least.....the most anticipated pictures of Zyden the gay !!
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Told you guys i'll put all of the pictures up. Even the ones without me in it :P hehehe. Nah! puas hati mu sudah mr sheffield? kekekeke

Oh. and im not so sure about the match scores. 4-4 kali.

I've been having conversations with several of my friends recently about how relatively easy it is to please girls or make us happy.

Hmm...for instance. I was feeling a bit under the weather yesterday..and then suddenly Fish came into my room with a crazy grin on her face and my eyes travelled down to her feet. The bitch's shoes came in the post! and DARN! lawa brabis her sandals. So i instantly wanted to buy shoes. I was actually feeling a bit sleepy cause i was doing some reading for my case studies assignment. But heck. Going through shoes and shoes (pretty ones at that too) instantly revived me. Heehee. and i found two pretty pairs of shoes. LOVE ESPRADILLES!! so yummy to look at and also yummy to the feet :)

Ive decided to buy only one pair though. Cause im thinking of getting myself the satin pink V3. Gotta pick which one is more important. And since they dont have the satin pink version in Brunei...i figured its more important to get the V3 now (yeah i know its such an old phone,i still love it ok? :P)

But anywaysss..im getting way off base here. Im just saying that...right after doing a little bit of retail therapy, i immediately feel better. The power of buying pretty things.

Right now as we speak..Fish is doing some retail therapy as well. Shes feeling pretty bummed at the mo. And having her hang out with me is not helping either. Why? Cause ill let her indulge herself with buying anything. Hey, if it makes you happy, i say go for it! hehe.

Tapi talor eh. Being depressed...will make us broke.

depressed + shopping = depleted balance in account

But eh wait..apa point ku tadi ah? ah yes. how easy it is to make a girl happy.

Oh wait. i think ill make a list lah. much easier that way. Just give us:-

1) retail therapy
2) ice cream (haagen daz's praline and cream preferrably)
3) a good gossip sesh with your gfs
4) chocolates
5) new SHOES

ofcourse it won't make the problem go away. But it will definitely make us feel happier for the time being.

kan kan kan?

The last video i posted reminded me of the last stupid video i took with my friends. The thing is, it was unintentional wah. We were hanging out at my place and were taking one of our many camwhoring pics, and i didnt realize that it was on video mode instead of picture mode. So that explains why were quiet and still in the beginning until i realized what was up and said "OH?!" and then we all started cracking up.

*sigh* i miss having one of those 'ketawa sampai sakit parut' sessions with u babes. Miss you all to bits!!! *hugs till tulang kamu patah* hehehe

A video i took of us when Dijah was sleeping over at sheff. Kekekeke. This was when we were getting ready to sleep at Fish's room :P

I was checking out my lil sister's website. And she posted a video of these boys dancing in the MD's auditorium? anyways...i think its from the DMC (stands for dance motion club kah?) anyways...i think those boys are pretty good. i liked the end parts. kudos to em! :)




and as usual...i like to just check out the related videos. and i came across these chicks exotic dancing to flo rida's low. suka ku. and to them boys who are into big booties! nah..liat tia. hahahaha. you'll get an eyeful here. hahahaha

Pictures from the picnic yesterday!! :)

Highlights of the picnic:

Me and Fish arrived early?! hehe. Well we weren't "early". We were the first to arrive :P Some poklen orang putih came and just started talking to us and telling us some nonsense shit about him being dumb and all. Err? He went away...and said he'll come back. We saw him bothering some other orang putihs...but this time he had a DOG with him. AIYOYOYO! na mauuuuu!! So we had to MOVE to another park! Hmpf. So we walked to the park that is across Victoria Halls. It was pretty nice there as well. The grass is much much much more softer. hehe. We ended up hanging out there till 4. All in all? great day yesterday :)

Random moments:

Me: We have intelligent and intellectually stimulating conversations rite?
Fish: Yeah...you know...like....now..
Me: Yeah!!! *nods in agreement* totally!!

sayang saja the govt mengantar kami belajar jauh2. *shakes head*

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Me and fish making maggi one night:
Me: Aku mau yg banyak soup!! *looking at the two bowls*
Fish: Aku mau yg sikit mee!!
*us both taking the bowl we wanted and then scooping some noodles and soup put from our own bowl and into the other's bowl*

kalau di pikirkan inda jua menjadi tu. tahan2 jua masih tu. after several scoopings, i stopped and said

"what the hell are we doing??!" *making a confused look*

and then we both started laughing our heads off. So i settled for having more soup and slightly more noodles. kekekeke!

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Me and Fish being bored one night and so we hung out in my room and watched Jesse McCartney videos. (probably cause i was the one on the laptop and fish was just going along with whatever i'm searching for on youtube)

*shes no you comes on*
Me: waaaaa!! he's so cute
Fish: Kalau bf ku menyanyi ani arah aku,aku inda insecure lagi!
Me: i knowwww~ aku mau cowok!
Fish and me: *sighhhhsss*

*leavin comes on*
Me: EEEEE!! he's so hot! how can anyone not say he's hot??!
Fish: Emm...aku ok lah.
Me: WHAT?! he's hot!!
Fish: Kau suka pretty boys miz
Me: inda jua!! i like em rugged and handsome too!
Fish: Mix lahh...
*we both nod in agreement and continued watching Jesse*

*Just so you know comes on*
Me: *sniff* kesian eh!
Fish: waaa! sakit tu...
*both of us referring to his hurt look cause he's in love with a girl he's not supposed to be with*
Me: *choke* awhhhh~ he looks so SADD!! my god he so knows how to act!! *sniff*
*Fish giving me a weird look*
Fish: Ia apa saja belakon pun kau suka. Ia belakon beria lagi kau suka kali.
Me: WAHAHAHAHAH!! MANADAAAA!!!

and then we searched for other videos lagi. I told u we were bored....

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Me: ooh! ooh! guess wat? someone told me that the fats in the ass prevents diabetes or something.
Fish: iakah?? YEAHHH!!!
*we smacked our asses and gave each other winks*
anything to make us girls feel better about our big asses.

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Seriously though. All this happened in a few days. Can we BE anymore talor? i swear i do have my intellectual moments. And i do read and do my work and tutorials. Tapi talking about it here won't be as much fun as tellin ya'll about the tancit things we did rite? heeheehee!

Picnic that's organized by Syam is todayyy! YIPPPEEE! I can't wait. I've never had a picnic here before :)

Will camwhore today.

Two very contrasting performance for the indonesian idol auditions. My brother ni suruh check out this video. The first one is this gay flamboyant guy. His english mcm inda betantu. Somehow i have a feeling that he just tried to memorise the lines but he doesnt even know what it means. hehehe.



Apanah ia nyanyi? linkin park's numb! hahahaha.

The second one ani i likeeee. I like his voice. Its so gruff. It's so A.J backstreet boys like. Check it out! Oh, and just in case you're wondering, the song he's singing is ST 12's rasa yang tertinggal.

*yawns and stretches lazily* itsssss 10.30am. i woke up at 9.30 tadi. and the whole house is quiet. -_-. bukan quiet pasal durang tidur masih..its quiet cause i think im the only one at home. Everyone else has class. Not sure if Sai is at home though...tapi usulnya macam inda.

I am totally totally loving this guy's voice. Lawaaaaaaaaa lawa brabis. His name's Aki. Actually met him di London when we were waiting for our train to Paris. His group didn't have any place to stay, so he was wondering whether they could bunk with us. Tpi at the last minute ada tia tampat tinggal for em...sooOooo inda jadi lah. Kalau ku tau ia pandai nyanyi cani..ill be like "helloooo~ pls sing me to sleep every night ;)" WAHAHAHAHAHAHA! nadabah. ia kanak2. im not a paedo :P

But hell..check this video of him singing out. LAWAA!!! aku balik2 dangar. when i say balik2 atu thats an understatement tu hehehe :P kalau ada urg nyanyi arah aku cani..tarus ku ter-fall bah. confirm!! (sanang kan to get a girl's heart? laki2 ganya talor inda tau cana..tsktsk)






lawakan? jiwang kamu slajur mendangarkan?

speaking of jiwang. si fish ni punya pasal im also acting and feeling this way. her jiwang-ness is rubbing off on me. si jiwang ah. tiap2 dangar lagu, jiwang. ehhhhh~ inda bagus inda bagus. i shouldn't be acting this way. But u know, seeing her happy...makes me have hope and believe (dangar tu fish?? kau inspirasi ku!) and what ena says makes total sense. and i quote "you have to go through several fucked up relationships to get to the special one" and then aku tambah lagi from there..."so that when you finally find the right one, you'll know how to treat it right"

:)

that was some deep shit rite? did i not sway you? did i not move you to tears? hahaha.

But im glad about all the things that have happened to me. I mean. Yes. I had my heartbreak with Baz. And i was REALLY angry and hurt. And all i wanted to do was lash out? But u know, now ive gotten over it and im actually missing the good times we had. Reminiscing the sweet moments. It was nice :) And it wouldn't have made me what i am today if all that didn't happen. So i learnt my mistakes from my relationship with him. and maybe maybeeee when i meet mr right, ill be all perfect for him. kan kan? then there was ping. that was totally insignificant cause we weren't even official and everything was just over the internet and the phone. And now that i think about it...i think he was the rebound guy. Why? two important things, met him 3 weeks after i broke up with baz and two, i don't feel anything when we're not in contact anymore.

It was going downhill anyways, when we weren't talking a lot anymore, i was losing interest. and that was BEFORE i found out about that horrible thing about him. EEEE. what was i thinking?? i plead temporary insanity for going for someone that is totally not my type. thank you thank you to anonymous tipper for showing me the light and showing me what he's really like. *shudder* But im glad i met him and it didn't work out between us. becauseeeee....if that didn't happen. i wouldn't have thought of pairing up my lil two babies together. HEHEHEHEHE. and we wouldn't be all jiwang rite now. kan kan? so i think ping was just an instrument from god to make those two happen. so im glad :) god works in mysterious ways. it's amazing!!

ok. ill stop jabbering. gonna shower now before the others get back home. i dont wanna be buruk masih when they get home from school :P

Dijah has gone back to London yesterday. Partly because the holiday is over and partly because she has class on Wednesday (booooOoo!!) hehehe. nadabah. u know i lap u daleng.

I've been sleeping late the past few nights (durang tu punya pasal...antu!) So it took me a long time to sleep last nite. Big mistake...tadi pagi i felt like crawling back to bed. I hate having one hour classes in the morning.

Oh oh..speaking of antu..i was talking to my lil sister the other day. I think it was two days ago? cant remember..anyways....she said...there has been some supernatural disturbances at home more and more recently. GAH!!! that is so berijab! she went on to tell me that abg has been seeing something hanging out in my room and hanging outside HER room as well sometimes. But mostly arah my room lah..cause obviously, my room has been empty since last summer. eeeee...ijab kuuuu! that's what i hate about leaving rooms empty...i should ask my lil sister to hang out in my room more...like..use my room for her study room or something in the meantime. Now im not lookin forward to sleepin in my room -_-

Oh, the other berijab happening? U know how babies can "see" things kan? well anyways, aysya was in the kitchen wah...and she wouldn't stop crying? she just kept on crying and crying and looking wildly around her...so my dad brought her to the living room...lapas atu barutah ia stop crying. BRRR!!! did she see something in the kitchen? FREAKY!!!

Ahhhh well~ ill ask my dad to azan kan my room saja nanti once i get back.

*yawn* im actually getting sleepy now... its ten past 11 sudah. just nice..ill just wait for my hair to dry...and im offff to bed :)

Memburuk Day 2 and 3

Slept late...woke up late. ordered in. watched some movies. gossiped. limpang2. guling2.

i think its safe to say that we have been memburuk-ing. Heck. I even combined memburuk day 2 and 3 in one post. heh heh heh!

im trying to persuade the girls to watch the eye with me. Fish is glued to her laptop. si jiwang ah. Dij is hooked to playing the golden compass on the DS. Should've told her to play cooking mama instead. banar. she's glued to it i cant pry her off it.

oOooo..my lil sister is on. i am goin to kacau her instead. nyahaha. yes i am bored. bite me :P

Day 1 of memburuk-ing (1st may)

Had my haircut at creator. Bloody awesome. me and fish thinks we were given the designer. So we got the 34.95 price. *(&*^$%&*@$@(*!!!!

But ok lah, in the end we didn't mind. Causeeee~ she was awesome. She knew her shit. So i like her :) And i like my new haircut...although im still trying to adjust to seeing myself with a fringe. it's so weird....

We hung out at costas after that before we picked Dijah up...

Picked Dijah up..and as usual that girl is so pengatil...she actually saw me and fish rushing towards the end of the coach station thinking that she would be there when she actually was waiting for us di dapan sudah. She just let us go till the end and looked around for a while before she called me. HAHAHAHA. talor anak ah :P

We went home first and dropped off her bag and rested for a while before going meadowhall. Ate at shere khans. YUM. Then we just shopped and looked around.

Oh oh...and everyone...Boots is having a 10 points for every 1 pound u spend on a single transaction over 15pounds. so bali bali tah!!! hehe. ive got 3.70 pounds worth to spend in store now. wooOoooott~ hehehe. then we headed to tesco cause we were all out of food..and i need to feed dijah something in the next few days so i need to get something. haha. kalau inda malas ku sudah tu :P

went back home...got hungry again..and we ordered pizza. but ketara nafsu wah kami ah, cause i was full by the time i got to the second slice...so we all have one untouched pizza left.... -_-

but i guess we can reheat that for lunch. after showering and freshenin up....we all just gabbed and gabbed and gabbed in fish's room. (dragged all my pillows and blanket to fish's room - we're all gonna bunk in her room this weekend - she has a HUGE queen air bed siukkk!)

Had an awesome time..we just laughed and laughed till i was crying my eyes out. talor wah durang ah. I dont know what time i finally conked out. i just remember conking out coz i was too tired. hehehe. so here i am...typing away cause they aren't up yet. eh wait...one of em just got up..must be dijah. im famished...i wonder when they'll be up cause im starving!!!!