*yawns and stretches lazily* itsssss 10.30am. i woke up at 9.30 tadi. and the whole house is quiet. -_-. bukan quiet pasal durang tidur masih..its quiet cause i think im the only one at home. Everyone else has class. Not sure if Sai is at home though...tapi usulnya macam inda.

I am totally totally loving this guy's voice. Lawaaaaaaaaa lawa brabis. His name's Aki. Actually met him di London when we were waiting for our train to Paris. His group didn't have any place to stay, so he was wondering whether they could bunk with us. Tpi at the last minute ada tia tampat tinggal for em...sooOooo inda jadi lah. Kalau ku tau ia pandai nyanyi cani..ill be like "helloooo~ pls sing me to sleep every night ;)" WAHAHAHAHAHAHA! nadabah. ia kanak2. im not a paedo :P

But hell..check this video of him singing out. LAWAA!!! aku balik2 dangar. when i say balik2 atu thats an understatement tu hehehe :P kalau ada urg nyanyi arah aku cani..tarus ku ter-fall bah. confirm!! (sanang kan to get a girl's heart? laki2 ganya talor inda tau cana..tsktsk)






lawakan? jiwang kamu slajur mendangarkan?

speaking of jiwang. si fish ni punya pasal im also acting and feeling this way. her jiwang-ness is rubbing off on me. si jiwang ah. tiap2 dangar lagu, jiwang. ehhhhh~ inda bagus inda bagus. i shouldn't be acting this way. But u know, seeing her happy...makes me have hope and believe (dangar tu fish?? kau inspirasi ku!) and what ena says makes total sense. and i quote "you have to go through several fucked up relationships to get to the special one" and then aku tambah lagi from there..."so that when you finally find the right one, you'll know how to treat it right"

:)

that was some deep shit rite? did i not sway you? did i not move you to tears? hahaha.

But im glad about all the things that have happened to me. I mean. Yes. I had my heartbreak with Baz. And i was REALLY angry and hurt. And all i wanted to do was lash out? But u know, now ive gotten over it and im actually missing the good times we had. Reminiscing the sweet moments. It was nice :) And it wouldn't have made me what i am today if all that didn't happen. So i learnt my mistakes from my relationship with him. and maybe maybeeee when i meet mr right, ill be all perfect for him. kan kan? then there was ping. that was totally insignificant cause we weren't even official and everything was just over the internet and the phone. And now that i think about it...i think he was the rebound guy. Why? two important things, met him 3 weeks after i broke up with baz and two, i don't feel anything when we're not in contact anymore.

It was going downhill anyways, when we weren't talking a lot anymore, i was losing interest. and that was BEFORE i found out about that horrible thing about him. EEEE. what was i thinking?? i plead temporary insanity for going for someone that is totally not my type. thank you thank you to anonymous tipper for showing me the light and showing me what he's really like. *shudder* But im glad i met him and it didn't work out between us. becauseeeee....if that didn't happen. i wouldn't have thought of pairing up my lil two babies together. HEHEHEHEHE. and we wouldn't be all jiwang rite now. kan kan? so i think ping was just an instrument from god to make those two happen. so im glad :) god works in mysterious ways. it's amazing!!

ok. ill stop jabbering. gonna shower now before the others get back home. i dont wanna be buruk masih when they get home from school :P